Day 140 - let me say something positive this time, for after yesterday's post you must be pissed at me ;) Look at the pics. The blue jeans beneath are the ones described in earlier posts - link - and the pair above is the famous Green jeand Motivation. See the measurement tape and the whole 6cm of difference between the items? I couldn't suspect there was so much! It's been only 1,5 month since I swapped from the blue jeans to the green ones, which means, 6cm in 45 days! I wear jeans size 26 which is regarded kids' size - both flattering and embarrassing. Yet, it's very hard to judge your own self from the side. As I put the item on and stand before the mirror I still feel ugly, seeing fat here and there, thinking I'm not skinny enough; whereas others may find my frame way too small for a 25 year-old and don't see any rolls or problem zones. It's a stick of 2 ends. I know girls weighing 45kg state they wear size 25, which supposes I might weigh 45kg and wear size 25 when I turn 25 LOL I'm shrinking, and I intend to go on, hardships ahead, tough times too, but there will be tears in my eyes, the tears of joy worth fighting for, and the incredible feeling of fulfillment and being proud and satisfied - this incredible mixture of positive emotions for which we all must continue the journey.
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